I must be determined

I ate breakfast.

I didn’t want to. But I did. Whole wheat mini bagel, low fat cream cheese, watermelon. I won’t be having refined sugar, candy, gum, or diet drinks today. I was doing better without all that sludge.

Is it bad that I want to weigh 115 pounds? That I want my thighs to cease their endless jiggling? And yet I also want to get better. Can I lose weight and be healthy? I don’t know.